Oh, 2017 I am actually sad to see you go. I wish someone would have warned me about this year. If I had a warning maybe I would not have spent all year being surprised by each and everything that happened. In hindsight, all the surprises turned out to be good no matter how painful things were in the moment. Because of all these surprises my life really changed this year.
I know my life changing was due to something bigger than me, like the universe and God. But I also know it was me who had the trust and courage to make choices and follow them through. That is the way the universe works when you are aware of its magic. The universe lays each step out for you and when you get to each one you arrive knowing it was the next right thing for you.
This year I learned how to trust myself and in the universe. I learned life will always take me where I need to be as long as I have the courage to follow and honor where it is taking me. I learned I always know what the next right thing to do is because it is always there waiting and I just have to get quiet and still enough to hear it.
Most importantly, in all the journeys 2017 led me on, I found myself. I stopped feeling lost and I started feeling like I found something I really liked; me. I started recognizing and honoring what I want, what I need, and what I don’t want or need. I started putting myself first and doing what was best for me. I stopped worrying about what people think (most of the time.) I like to think I grew up but what really happened was I grew into myself and into the person I was always meant to be.
In my short 23 years on this planet, I have had a lot of hard years. Each one hard for different reasons. This year I had to confront myself and my fears in doing so I found who I am. Who I am is who I always was underneath it all, I stopped being scared of her and I stopped running from my pain out of fear it would kill me. Facing my pain did not kill me. I am still here and I am still going. Thank you 2017, universe, and me for a difficult but amazing and rewarding year. Here’s to 2018!